Progress report

1,650
90.2
48
25
10
3.2

1,650 = the number of calories I'm allowed to eat in a day
90.2 = the number of miles I've biked to and from work
48 = the average number of raw almonds I consume in one day
25 = the number of days I've gone without filling up my gas tank
10 = how I'd rate my day today, out of 10
3.2 = the pounds I've lost since I started riding my bike to work

I hope you're all having a fabulous day, because I sure am! No work for 2 whole days!!!

Coming soon: Mach 75!

I have way too much time to think at work. It's really affecting the kooky side of me. Today, as I was eating grapes out of a Zip-lock double zipper bag, I thought to myself, why the heck does this bag have a double zipper?! Seriously. Maybe if you guys had made the first zipper more sturdy, you wouldn't have a need to add a second one! Watch out, these killer grapes might escape and run rampant and terrorize Phoenix! I'm pretty sure my grapes don't run the risk of breaking the already too-thick bag. Sure, these bags might be great for meat, but if you really need two zippers to hold your meat in the bag, you should probably think about buying less vicious carcasses. (I'm pretty sure I could have added a "that's what she said" in there somewhere, but I shall refrain)

I bought some batteries the other day and with them I got a bonus Mach5 razor. What disposable razors have to do with batteries in the first place is beyond me. Anyway, this razor, true to its name had 5 BLADES. Really?! Apparently 4 blades just doesn't cut it--literally. Are there razors with more than 5 blades? I wouldn't be surprised. What genius over at the razor factory is going to invent the next new, state of the art razor?!
Why don't they just invent a razor with 75 blades where you can press it against your leg and move it up just one millimeter, and PRESTO! your leg is as smooth as the day you were born.

I should be an inventor, I tell ya!

Turning that frown upside-down

You all know how miserable I've been lately (some more than others), and I try to avoid the things that trigger my depressive moods, such as being alone, talking negative, etc. These things work for a while, but that mood always creeps back up to me. Until yesterday.

I had the opportunity to do something nice for someone. A simple, thoughtful act. Within seconds my good mood doubled tripled quadrupled! I was astounded at how FAST I was able to kill that bad spirit and begin riding a high that has lasted me more than 24 hours.

Did I move mountains? No. Did it change the life of the person who I helped? Probably not. But it did change my life in a small way? Absolutely, yes.

I challenge you to do something nice for someone else this week. It doesn't have to be life changing. But, who knows. Maybe it really will change the life of the person most important--you!


Back blog:
I appreciate all of your comments even more than you can imagine. I wish I knew how to thank you all properly, but I'm at a loss for words when I read all the kind things you guys write to me! Your love is what keeps me going :)

Someone is watching out for me...

I had a rough night last night. I really don't know what it was, but I just needed a good cry, I think. Thanks to my mom for being the unfortunate saint at the other end of the line as she listened to me ramble unintelligible sentences.

I've been working on seeing a counselor for months now, and I was at my wit's end. In an effort to try to reach one to schedule an appointment with (none of the previous inquiries had bothered to return my call), I, very much like a lunatic, began dialing any number I could find off the list of insurance approved psychiatrists. I left voicemail after voicemail each click of the phone making my heart sink even more at the though that, again, one would just brush me off.

I dialed the number of one psychiatrist whom shares my last name, and at 11:00 at night, I hear a "Hello?"

Finally. Someone cared.

She didn't let me get off that phone call for nearly 40 minutes. I left with her office number, cell number, and even her fax number and a promise, to be there, waiting for me at 6:00 on Wednesday.

I can't express how grateful I am that someone finally took the initiative to hear me out and talk to me like a human being. With every ignored call a literal slap in the face, I'm glad someone was there to pick me up.

Never underestimate the effect you have on someone in need.

Take the inititave and be that kind of person for someone else. There is nothing more angelic.

The Buried Blog

What do you want to do before you die?

Anyone ever watched The Buried Life on MTV? It's a relatively new show about a group of young men who made a list and have set out on a quest to fulfill everything they want to do before they die.

I'm sure every one of us have set goals of things we want to accomplish throughout our lifetime, and besides the standard responses like "get married" and "have kids" (both of which I want to do), what do you REALLY want to do before you die?

Here's my top 5:
1: Visit all 50 states (Sara, I'm so envious of you...)
2: Go to an Arizona Cardinals game
3: Live in New York City
4: Get a stamp in my passport
5: Be an inspiration to others

What's your top 5?

Check out this tear-jerking video. I cry every time I watch it!

Vindicated

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

Loss is a subjective word. Did I lose my willpower? Did I lose my focus? Did I lose my dedication? Have I lost my faith? Am I losing my job? Did I lose my best friend? Am I about to lose my mind? What exactly is loss?

Loss is my temporary still.

Loss inspires hope.

Loss has been my vindication.

So mesmerizing,
so hypnotizing
I am captivated

I literally feel change brewing. I can taste it. I can hear it. How do I find it? Only through the faith of others and the fervor of one imperfect person...

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

This is where I begin: to go back to basics, to begin anew, and find out who I am.

This is my journey.

Earth to my blog readers...

I've been thinking about doing a DAILY blog. Yes, daily! Anyone interested in reading it?

Live changes, diets, Beesley, work, etc. I'm going to discuss it all!

Shoot me a comment to let me know if I'm going to actually have some followers :)